IT'S BEEN A HELL OF A WEEK!!!!! "oh no you did not just say that!" oh yes I did.

 Without going into specific details that are really none of anyone's business, it comes down to the fact that I am not perfect, not even close.  So many people depend on me to vent and complain and try and make me responsible for things they know nothing of.  They come to me to solve their problems, whine about how hard their life is, brag about how much smarter they are than me, argue with me when they want my advice.  The list does not end, it is endless, trailing off into eternity whining, bragging, insulting, and taking my gentleness for granted.  People in general see me as weak so I have been told.  I say I am meek. Meekness is sign of maturity and strength, knowing where I come from, knowing Who I belong to. 
     My patience has been tested and I failed again!  I heard a word from the Lord, I know what the plans are He has for me.  And once again like so many times over the last 32 years of being a Christian, I lost it!  I fretted and fussed and was hurt and angry because of things happening in the natural, even when the Lord told me to stop.  My stomach was upset, I couldn't sleep, I felt wronged and from everyone I talked to, they agreed rightfully so.  I literally cried out to the Lord crying so hard  that I almost lost my voice.  So what did it get me?  Nothing.  God is still there, never moved, never left me, His plans never changed, His grace and peace were right at the end of my fingertips if I had opened up my hands in praise to Him instead of clenching my fist at my enemies.  The small disappointment that happened had to happen in order for Him to move me into the blessing that He told me would happen for me.  Every single moment of my life has been ordained by God, I am chosen, I am on assignment right now, and no one in the natural or in the spiritual realm can stop me; accept me.  So now I know I will have to live through this lesson again until I FINALLY get it; and rest in His Peace, Grace and Love. 

Some scriptures to contemplate.
    Psalms 25:8 Good and upright is the LORD: therefore will he teach sinners in the way. 9 The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way.
Psalms 25:12 What man is he that feareth the LORD? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose.13 His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth.
Psalms 37:7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.9 For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth.10 For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be.
11 But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.
Psalms 37:18 The LORD knoweth the days of the upright: and their inheritance shall be for ever.
Psalms 37:22 For such as be blessed of him shall inherit the earth; and they that be cursed of him shall be cut off.
Matthew 5:5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.